Day 14

Dear Journal,

It's been 2 weeks already!!!! Time pass by so fast. Kelly looks so much bigger now compared to the first week and I think she got chubbier too. I have to buy clothes for her soon if she keeps growing this fast. Kelly isn't crying as much now too so it's not as bad as the first week. I even got to do some chores around the house when she was napping and she's alright now with drinking her milk. I'm planning to start a trust fund for her soon when I have some more money leftover.



She looks like an angel in this picture, I think I'll dress her up as an angel for Halloween.

That's it for now, I'll post later!

Day 13

Dear Journal,

We went to the doctor today and he said that it wasn't life threatening or anything like that, I guess I'll have to keep her away from dogs. I think I should be more cautious when I start giving her solid food if she's already allergic to something. Maybe I should get her to do an allergy test when she's older; she might be allergic to cats or something. I'm being paranoid and anxious now but at least I don't have PPD; I heard that it can be really bad. I completely understand why parents are so worried now, I used to think parents are being too protective and worried, now I'm just like them.

I wonder if it's a bit overboard if I want to send her to an all girls school. lol. It probably is, being a parent is so much harder than I thought it'll be but talking to my neighbour helps. She's experienced with being a mother; I don't know what I'll do without her.
I'll post soon!

Day 12

Dear Journal,

Turns out Kelly is allergic to dogs; I took her to the park today and a dog came over, Kelly instantly started sneezing. I was planning to get a dog whe Kelly got older too. :( I'm going to take Kelly to the doctors tomorrow to see how bad she is allergic to dogs. Better safe and sorry. It's a short post today but I'll post tomorrow!

Day 11

Dear Journal,

A house next door is doing construction right now and they keep waking up Kelly so she's really grumpy right now. I'll probably go for a walk at the park with her today so she can get some sleep without being woke up. I got a new stroller that is really comfortable for babies to sleep in so it should be fine.

She's also been eating a lot more these days, she's hungry every 2 hours now. Weaning is going to be hard, I think I'll start weaning her after 10 months or so. She'll be able to eat baby food so hopefully it won' t be too bad.



I remember trying baby food before, it was peach flavour and it wasn't too bad but it was really bland. It's like 5 bucks for one can though. My godbrother is eating them too right now, I think I'll buy some for Kelly when she can get them.
I'll post tomorrow!

Day 10

Dear Journal,

I finally got kelly into a daycare near my work for next year! I'm so glad I did some research online on baby preparations. It's so hard to find a daycare for babies these days so I had to line up for a daycare before she was even born. I was worrying about finding a daycare for her but now the problem's solved. :) I also heard that it was a really daycare plus I can go over there within 5 minutes from my workplace if something happens. I'll post later!

Day 9

Dear Journal,

I went to the park with Kelly for walk today, there were also a lot of mothers there with their kids. I can't wait for Kelly to be old enough to play in the park with other kids. I'm going to take hundreds of pictures of her going down the slide, on the swing, playing in the sandbox, I can't wait!!



Kelly's also going to clebrate Chinese New Year for the first time today, she's going to get a ton of money. I'm going guess about $500 or more since she's the only baby in the family right now. I even found a cute New Year outfit for her. It's a bit big on her but she wan wear it next year too. I still can't believe I'm a mom still, it's stressing but it feels great to be a mom. <3

Day 8

Dear Journal,

I can't believe a week passed by already!! I don't know how I even have time to post everyday, it's like war everyday in my house. And I just calculated all the bills for what I got for Kelly. A baby is so expensive and everything is getting more expensive. I don't think my saving would be enough, raising a baby cost $400,000 is a lie, it's more like $800,000. I have to cut back a little if i don't want to go broke.

I need to get back to work next year but it's so hard to find a babysitter or a daycare for a new born baby. There's always my mom but it'll be too tiring for her and Kelly doesn't really like strangers. This is a depressing post, I hope I have something better to talk about tomorrow.

Day 7

Dear Journal,

I just came back from the doctors and Kelly's perfectly fine!Phew. Now I'm hoping that it'll stay that way.I haven't gone out ever since I got back from the hospital, it felt nice to go out again but I wanna get back to my original size! I was so jealous when I saw a girl wearing this cute dress today but I can't wear anything that tight any time soon until I lose all this baby weight.:'( I want to get back into my size 2 jeans!!!! I wonder how long that'll take. Loosing a pound takes so long and I don't even have the time to exercise. I'm going to try to loose all this baby weight in a year and wear a cute dress next summer.

Oh, and the driving wasn't so bad after a while. Kelly was nice and calm in the car which helped a lot and the  doctor's office wasn't too far away. Kelly also smiled for the first time today, she was so cute! All I had to do was hurt myself and she would laugh. She makes my life so easy, not! Time to feed Kelly, I'll post soon!


It's such a cute dress!

 

Day 6

Dear Journal,

I'm taking Kelly for her check-up tomorrow! I'm crossing my fingers that she's still nice and healthy. My cousin is going with me just in case Kelly needs something while I'm driving. It's going to be my first time driving with Kelly inside, it feels like my first time driving. I should probably get someone else to drive but I have to drive her one day anyways, no point running away from it.

So much things to prepare now! I wanna go out without having to do all this preparation! I just finished installing the car seat and damn it took long. Why can' t they make it easier, I'm hoping I installed it right. I don't want my baby flying through the window. There's also the stroller, bottles, formula milk, clothes, so much to pack! My brain is almost going to explode, some times I feel like dropping Kelly at my mom's place for a few days but that'll be too much for my mom. I can't expect her to take care of my kid. Maybe I should hire a babysitter but that'll be too expensive. I need to do a whole new budget plan.


 They really need to make baby bags, there's too much things to put inside.
 I'm gonna go start packing now!

Day 5

Dear Journal,

My aunts and cousins came over to see Elena today so I was able to relax while they took care of her. Taking care of a baby is exhausting!! I'm so tired that I don't even clean my house as much now, I'm taking my friends advice and not let chores be such a high priority. There's really not enough time in the world, so much things to do, so little time. I don't think I've been this stress since going to University. I need a long vacation to reward myself when Kelly is older. I'm thinking Las Vegas or Florida, somewhere nice and hot. Elena is crying, I'll post later! :)

Day 4

Dear Journal,

I feel like buying a stash or air freshener, my house smells like diapers. I throw away at least 7 diapers a day and you can smell it all around the house. Maybe I'm exaggerating it a bit but I never knew it would be this bad.The one thing I won't miss doing when she grows up is changing her diaper, it's such a pain in the butt.  Diapers aren't cheap too. Raising a baby is more expensive than I thought, my admiration to those teen parents out there!

 I don't even have enough time to eat, let alone rest. Being a parent is hard but it's worth it when I spend time with Kelly, she's so cute. I sleep while holding her but I'm scared that I would suffocate her. I'm scared of many things, like dropping her, especially when she's so slippery when I'm giving her a bath. When I gave her a bath last night, I almost dropped since the soap was so slippery. I'm gonna get a heart attack soon if these things keep happening. I can't wait for her to grow up, I wanna dress her up and take her shopping!


My first time giving her a bath. I was scared to give her a bath when I just home from the hospital so I only wiped her using a towel during the first few days. I don't want to drop her or accidently hurt her while giving her a bath. Her skull haven't even fully closed yet, She's so fragile like glass and I haven' been getting enough sleep so I'm not using my brain as much. Better keep things nice and safe for a while. :P
I'll post soon!

Day 3

Dear Journal,

Elena is better today, it's not as bad as yesterday but she keeps waking up every half an hour or so when I leave her in her crib. Being a mother is so tiring, I'm so happy that my mom came over to help out today. My mom is monopolising her and she wouldn't give her back to me. I have a feeling that Elena is going to spoil rotten by her grandma in the future. I wanna spoil my grand babies in the future (way way in the future) too.lol. Being a grandmother would be so much easier than a mother; when you're a grandmother, you don't have to take care of the baby 24/7. Babies are the biggest attention seekers ever! I can't even take a long hot shower now.:'( I don't even have time to change, I've been wearing the same sweats for 3 days! I'm so glad I got my shower today. I don't want my mom to leave, I miss having time for myself.

I have a daughter now but I'm still complaining,lol, I wonder what Kelly will think when she sees this blog in the future. probably something  like, I wasn't that bad, I was the best baby ever and blah blah blah... I can't wait for her to grow older.
That's it for now!

Day 2

Dear Journal,

It's the second day and Elena hadn't stop crying until now. I don't know what I'll do if this happens every single morning! Maybe I'm not fit to be a mother or maybe something is wrong with her, I don't know!!! I wanna leave her at home and go somewhere but all I can do is try to comfort her. I asked my mom what to do and she said that she'll probably stop when she's tired and thank god that happened. Babies can't help it though, coming into a new world is scary for them. I wish I can remember what it was like to be a baby, that would be so cool if I did.

I got so many pictures of Kelly already and it's only the first week, I'm going to make a huge photo album of her and use it to embarrass her in front of her boyfriend in the future, just kidding. I just want to see how much she's grown everyday; babies' face change really fast. OMG! Elena started crying again, I'll post soon.

Day 1

Dear Journal,

I'm finally a mother; I hope I can be an awesome single mom. I want to be one of those cool moms that their kids aren't embarrass to go shopping with or hang out with. It's the first day that I got home from the hospital with the baby. She's 8lbs and perfectly healthy when they did the Apgar Scale test on her. It's so exciting and unreal but scary at the same time since I have to take care of her without the nurses helping me. I just wish I can bring them home with me and help me out. I'm glad my mom and aunts offered to help though. I'm so excited that I forgot to mention, her name is Kelly. I was going to name her Elena, my favourite character from Vampire diary but she didn't look like an Elena. :'( Kelly is a good name too. Elena didn't cry much when we were driving her home so that was good, crossing my fingers that it stays this way. I'm hoping she won't have the red light phobia (when the baby cries when the car stops at a red light).

Kelly's being bottle fed since I'm on meds. Feeding her milk from a bottle is alot harder than I thought, she kept pushing the bottle away with her tongue, I was so lucky when my neighbor came over; she had 2 kids already and it seems like she had the same problem in the past. I don't know what I'll do if she didn't come over. Kelly also had her meconium today so it means Kelly is healthy! It was really weird, it was all black and stuff. That's it for now, I need to as much sleep as I can.

Baby Journal Assignment

Dear Readers,

This blog is for a high school assignment and everything on this blog is not real.

                                                                                              Sincerely,
                                                                                                               Heidi Tieu
P.S. I hope you enjoy reading this!